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9月10日 this life..sometimes i just don't think i can.. sometimes it's all just too hard.. this life does not feel like living at times, it does not seem worth the pain... the exhaustment.. the battle.. the fight.. it doesn't seem like it will end.. it feels like it will go on forever.. but what does forever mean? it's just one of those questions that is held in mid air, suspended by an invisible strand... there's no answer.. i'd like to get to the end of it all.. just to see what's there.. and then turn around and go back to living once i know what i'm living for.. sometimes life feels like its worth living.. you find someone you love and the battles and the fights seem worth it.. but then you get torn between two people you love.. and the battles start again.. those voices inside your head tell you to do what's wrong when you really want to do what's right while you're having some fun along the way.. you can't have everything you want.. so once you're torn between these two people you make the wrong decisions.. and then it all comes tumbling down on you.. and you lose everything all over again.. you feel so insignificant.. so small.. so weak.. and the whole cycle starts again.. it's so hard you know.. to love one person for a long time.. you always need something else.. something more.. something that they're not giving you.. but you can't have it.. it hurts you know.. this life..
to be continued.. 6月9日 x__remember now__xfσяgєт нιѕ иαмє, fσяgєт нιѕ fα¢є,
fσяgєт нιѕ кιѕѕ αи∂ ωαям ємвяα¢є,
fσяgєт тнє ℓσνє тнαт σи¢є ωαѕ тяυє,
яємємвєя иσω тнєяєѕ ѕσмєσиє иєω..
fσяgєт тнє ℓσνє тнαт уσυ σи¢є ѕнαяє∂,
fσяgєт тнє fα¢т тнαт нє σи¢є ¢αяє∂,
fσяgєт тнє тιмєѕ уσυ ѕρєит тσgєтнєя,
яємємвєя иσω нєѕ gσиє fσяєνєя...
fσяgєт уσυ ¢яιє∂ тнє ωнσℓє иιgнт ℓσиg,
fσяgєт нιм ωнєи тнєу ρℓαу уσυя ѕσиg,
fσяgєт нσω ¢ℓσѕє уσυ тωσ σи¢є ωєяє,
яємємвєя иσω нєѕ ¢нσѕєи нєя...
 4月3日 x-poem-x[♥] [♥] [♥]
theres one thing that keeps me hanging when im slipping off the edge theres one thing that keeps me alive when i wished my life would end
theres one thing i hold onto to get me through the night theres one thing that keeps me alive when i wish to die
theres one thing that stops me crying Even when i've bled theres one thing that wipes away my tears even when i am dead
theres one thing i cant help but love even when im bleeding theres one thing that stops me cutting one thing that stops the blade
theres one thing i couldnt live without but even that is gone theres one thing that i love when im bleeding out
theres one thing that saved me i love it how you do theres one thing that held onto me and that thing is you.... 3月18日 sorry i wasn't there...ινє ℓσѕт ѕσ мυ¢н
ιтѕ ѕσ нαя∂ тσ вαяє
ι ωιѕн ι ¢συℓ∂ σf ѕανє∂
уσυ ι ωιѕн ι ωαѕ тнєяє
ι fєєℓ ѕσ gυιℓту
ι fєєℓ ѕσ ѕα∂
ι fєєℓ уσυя мιѕєяу
ι fєєℓ ѕσ мα∂
ι ℓσνє∂ уσυ
ωє ωєяє gяєαт мαтєѕ
иσω уσυ αяє gσиє
αи∂ ιтѕ ѕσ нαя∂ тσ тαкє
ι ѕιт αℓσиє αи∂ ι ωσи∂єя ωну
ι fєєℓ ѕσ мυ¢н яєgяєт
ι נυѕт ωαит тσ ¢яу
уσυ αяє gσиє
тнєяєѕ иσтнιиg ι ¢αи ∂σ
ι ωιѕн ι ωαѕ тнєяє fσя уσυ
ι ωιѕн ι ωαѕ ѕσмєтнιиg ι ¢συℓ∂ ∂σ
ι киσω ι ωαѕит тнєяє fσя уσυ
ιтѕ тσ ℓιттℓє тσσ ℓαтє иσω
ι ωιѕн ι ¢συℓ∂ ѕтσρ тнє ραιи ιиѕι∂є
уσυ נυѕт gσттα тєℓℓ мє нσω
ι ∂єѕєяνє тσ вє ρυиιѕнє∂
ι ωαѕит α gσσ∂ fяιєи∂
тяυѕт мє ι киσω тнαт иσω
ι נυѕт ωιѕнє∂ ι ¢συℓ∂ σf ѕανє∂ уσυ
ι ∂є∂ι¢αтє тнιѕ вℓσg єитяу тσ му ¢συѕιи вяα∂.. ιт'ѕ вєєи 6 уєαяѕ тσ∂αу.. ι мιѕѕ уα нєαρѕ...
 2月18日 kill me... i dare youI want you to do something... Something for Me... And for Me only.... I want you to rip out my heart And watch it beat in your hand. Then squeeze it Just to cause me as much excruciating pain as possible. I want to be able to feel that pain I want to feel all that hatred you have for Me Within Your own veins. Throw my heart back at me Make it hurt. I want you to kick me. To beat me. Make me understand Make me believe you are being for real. I guess I don’t know you anymore And you just don’t know me either. You don’t want to. But that doesn't matter. I can see it in your eyes Every single time you look at me. Teach me the lesson I NEED to be taught Leave me bloody and bruised Unable to move. Since you despise me so much Here is my permission Kill Me - I Dare You
1月30日 !me!I’m Just Me AnD ThaTs All I Can Be, No More , No Less,No Second Guess.I Laugh, I Love, I Live, I CryAnd SoMEtiMeZ I Wish That I WoULd DiE.SoMe DaYZ Im Funny,Others Im Not .Some Days Im In Overdrive,And I Cant Stop.`You MaY NoT LiKE Me, But Thats Ok,This Is Me And This Is How I’ll Stay
1月24日 ...untitled...I wonder if he knows that this is about him… But I suppose he doesn’t really care I’m blinded by his love, you know?? But I don’t think he wishes to share I think about him every night I bet he doesn’t think about me He’s tied up in his own little world He doesn’t give a shit about me… Apparently he’s “getting over his ex” She was my best friend you know Now we’re pulled apart All because of him and his self centred ways I love him to pieces How many clues do I need to leave?? I suppose it doesn’t matter though Because he’s never going to know the truth about me……
1月17日 x-xNever say that things because life will prove you wrong.. dont on because no one is THAT strong after a while you get sick of caring and your too hurt to fight..
things will never be right
1月3日 x-thinking of you-xвσу…ι ѕтιℓℓ тнιик σf уσυ
єα¢н мσяиιиg αи∂ иιgнт
уσυ ωαит тσ нσℓ∂ тιgнт
вυт ι gυєѕѕ вσу
уσυ נυѕт ∂ι∂и’т fєєℓ тнє ѕαмє ωαу
єνєяу ѕιиgℓє ∂αу
уσυ ∂σи’т ¢αяє
ωнєи ι’м ѕтαи∂ιиg тнєяє
ℓιкє иєαяℓу αℓℓ тнє тιмє
αи∂ ωαитє∂ уσυ fσя мιиє
αи∂ тнєи ι ∂σи’т киσω ωнαт нαρρєиє∂
уσυ נυѕт ѕєємє∂ тσ ∂яιfт αωαу
ιи му нєαят ιѕ ωнєяє уσυ ѕтαу
 12月30日 x[friends]xму мαтєѕ αяє тнє вєѕт
уσυ киσω тнαт ιтѕ тяυє ι נυѕт ∂σи'т киσω ωнαт ι'∂ ∂σ ωιтнσυт уσυ уσυ ∂σит ¢αяє ιf ι'м ѕнσят σя тαℓℓ, fαт σя ѕℓιм ι киσω уσυ'ℓℓ вє тнєяє ωнєи тнιиgѕ gєт gяιм ωнєи ι αм ∂σωи σя fєєℓιиg αℓσиє ι киσω тнαт уσυ'яє נυѕт σи тнє єи∂ σf тнє ρнσиє
12月28日 x-thought this woz cute-x
12月23日 i cant...ι ¢αит ρяσмιѕє тσ иєνєя мαкє υ ¢яу вυт ι ¢αи ρяσмιѕє тσ ωιρє αωαу υя тєαяѕ ι ¢αит ρяσмιѕє тσ иєνєя fιgнт ωιтн υ вυт ι ¢αи ρяσмιѕє тσ αℓωαуѕ вє тнєяє тσ мαкє υρ ωιтн υ ι ¢αит ρяσмιѕє тσ αℓωαуѕ υи∂єяѕтαи∂ υ вυт ι ¢αи ρяσмιѕє тσ тяу єνєяу∂αу ι ¢αит ρяσмιѕє υ тнαт ι ωιℓℓ иєνєя ∂ιѕαρρσιит υ вυт ι ¢αи ρяσмιѕє тσ вє тнєяє ву υя ѕι∂є тιℓ тнє єи∂
sometimes.......ѕυмтιмєѕ υ נυѕ gσттα яυи αωαу, ѕσ υ ¢αи ѕєє ωнσ ωιLLℓ ¢oмє αfтєя υ.
ѕυмтιмєѕ υ gσттα тαLк qυιєтєя, Just тσ ѕєє ωнσѕ lιѕтєиιи.
ѕυмтιмєѕ υ gσттα ѕтєρ υρ ιи α fιgнт, вυт σиLу тσ ѕєє ωнσѕ ѕтαи∂ιи ву υя ѕι∂є.
ѕυмтιмєѕ υ gσттα мαкє α ωяσиg ∂є¢ιѕισи, σиLу тσ ѕєє ωнσѕ тнєяє тσ нєℓρ υ fιχ ιт.
αи∂ ѕυмтιмєѕ...υ gσттα ℓLєт gσ σf тнє σиєѕ υ ℓυν, נυѕt тσ ѕєє ιf тнєу ωιLL ¢σмє вαк...
 12月22日 -life-life can be hard
and not always fun,
but as night brings dark
morning brings sun...
when life gets hard
and nobody seems to care,
giv me a call and ill always be there...
 12月19日 <3Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't
12月18日 +guys+just a little something that i wrote...
sometimes you can love a guy so much that it hurts and cuts you to the bone..
then you have to let them go..
they'll think you're a user, but its for the best..
they'll hate you forever, but it's for the best..
they won't want to talk to you again, but its for the best..
when you love someone too much, let them go..
don't let yourself suffer because of their burden..
let them go and then build a new bridge..
get on with your life..
don't wait until u realise that you like them again
keep moving forward..
don't look back because you'll regret it..
mr right IS out there somewhere..
so don't give up hope..
keep looking and eventually you'll find him..
it may take 4 years, it may take 40..
it doesn't matter how many years it takes,
what really matters is that you're happy and enjoying life...
 12月10日 untitledѕσмєтιмєѕ уσυ gєт ѕσ ωαℓℓє∂ υρ ву уσυя ємσтισиѕ
αи∂ уσυ ∂σит gєт тσ єиנσу ℓιfє.., тнєи ιтѕ gσиє...
ѕℓιρρє∂ тняσυgн уσυя fιиgєяѕ ℓιкє тєαяѕ ѕтяєαмιиg
∂σωи α fα¢є...уσυ fєєℓ ѕσ ѕєℓf ¢єитєяє∂ ωιтн
єνєяутнιиg уσυ ∂σ αи∂ ρυт ѕσ мυ¢н ѕтяєѕѕ σи
єνєяуσиє єℓѕє... тнєи тнєуяє gσиє... ℓιfє ιѕит αвσυт
тяуιиg тσ ρℓєαѕє ρєσρℓє.... ιтѕ αвσυт єиנσумєит,
нαρριиєѕѕ, fяιєи∂ѕнιρѕ...иєνєя ωσяяу αвσυт ωαт
σтнєяѕ тнιик...αѕ ℓσиg αѕ уσυя нαρρу αи∂
єиנσуιиg ℓιfє... ∂σит ℓєт уσυя ємσтισиѕ кєєρ уσυ
ℓσ¢кє∂ υρ.. ρυℓℓ тнєм συт σf уσυяѕєℓf... ∂σит
ℓσσѕє уσυяѕєℓf ιи уσυя ємσтισиѕ, уσυℓℓ σиℓу
fєєℓ ωσяѕє... ѕρ єиנσу ℓιfє αѕ ιт ¢σмєѕ, тαкє
ρℓєиту σf ¢нαи¢єѕ αи∂ єνєитυαℓℓу уσυℓℓ fιи∂
уσυя ρℓα¢є σи єαятн.......
 12月1日 sumfin 2 think about.... as sOon aS [You] gEt [online].. wHOs nAme Do yOu LoOk 4 [fiRst]?
wHen A [slOw] sOnG cOmeS On tHe [radio].. wHos FaCe COmeS 2 MinD 1sT ?
wheN YOU HeaR [YoUR]fone ringing..wHo do [YoU] hOpe It iS calling ?
whOse name [MAKES] yOur [heart] skip a beat
11月22日 ♥ [x]o[x]o[x] ♥
11月9日 ~trust~
{•Trust•} •Trust is a strong word• •A meaning broken in two• •This word is formed• •Around one letter• •The letter which is u• •For u are the only one I live for• •The only one I love• •And if u remain by my side• •The u becomes an us• •For us means no other love• •Only me and u• •and from this day forth• •I promise us• •Forever I'll be tru• •Tru to our relationship• •In hopes it will never rust• •For u are the one• •I give my love• •The only one I trust•
9月27日 *:(**
Between h0lding hands and falling in l0ve..y0u begin t0 learn that: Kisses d0nt alwayz mean something, Pr0mises can be br0ken [just as quickly as they were made]..and s0metimes g00dbyes really are f0rever*
9月15日 u & me
9月14日 xoxoIf i could have just one wish,
I wish i would wake up everyday,
To the sound of your breath on my neck
To the warmth on your lips on my cheek
The touch of your fingers on my skin
And the feel of your heart beating with mine
Knowing that i could never find that feeling
With anyone other than you..
I think of you each morning
And dream of you each nite
I think of your arms around me tight
9月11日 ...Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or Saying nothing and wishing you had? But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. *What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn’t have them?? |
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